this is so awesome

In case you are wondering, when you are down and out and crying (and I do mean literally crying) about your love life (okay, fine, lack of a love life) the best thing that can happen is for you to innocently check your email and find an email from an ex. You know you should delete that email without even reading it. Of course you read it, and by what he says you know you should be really happy that moron ran out on you. You should be rejoicing the mistakes you never got to make for once, instead of having another pile of regrets on your conscience.

But then you start thinking...since we stopped dating, he has managed to get married, have a kid and get divorced and you, well, you haven't done anything. You have not really dated anyone, in fact you have only made questionable move after questionable move in this aspect of your life. Always waiting too long to tell the person interested in you that you too are interested and wanting to give it a shot, instead opening the door for them to change their mind, get bored, find someone else.

It turns out he was right after all, you are just scared of your feelings. And who wants to admit that perhaps the most fucked up person they have dated is actually right? No one I tell you and that is bad enough. The kicker...his kid is adorable, not as cute as ours would be but cute and I needed to see that like a fat kids needs cake.